relationships are always so difficult to manage...and now i just want to simplify everything....bros bros bros bros bros.
Guys being overly friendly always gets to me and especially when they have cute smiles!!! After some analysing with my friend (thank god she was able to give me good advice!!!) I think its best for me just to treat everyone only as a friend/brother. To many i am seen as a young sister because i look and act younger than what i really am...i always took it as a compliment but now i think its a sign that i have to work on things...i can't always give them a young image especially when im out there working! I guess you can say im afraid of getting hurt and scared to be disappointed and all...i think i am afraid...that's probably why im not wanting to go forward with anything. Plus its always one sided shit. Its better to keep a bro/friend than to make it all awkward with a relationship that never really worked out! As i told my friend the things he does...she said its all mixed reactions...or maybe he is that friendly to everyone! whatever it is...its always good to talk to someone about it...get some advice so im not always thinking it my way. Its also good in a sense that i wont be seeing him as much anymore since i dont work there. Less interaction with him...then hopefully those feels will begin to dilute..and fade away. There area heaps of things in him which i didnt want in a guy but then his playful personaility is something i wanted. Or maybe im getting it confused with someone id love/enjoy working with rather than bf material. Thats something i need to sort out. My friend asked if ive ever really loved someone...my reply was...i dont really know what really loving someone is like and so i say...dont think so? :/
Its exam time now and the main focus in my life is really exams and also maintaining relationships with my family. Exams can stress me out so much and when i get stressed i get grumpy at everyone..its so important that i dont damage anything along the way. Make sure you're in contact with the people you love everyone! ^^
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